Homeschooling With Chronic Illness: Yes You Can!

Juggling motherhood and chronic medical conditions is challenging. I am a mother of two. I also have two types of cancer. I’ve lost my thyroid and adrenals to these cancers. The battle continues, and yet so does life. I can’t put my kids on hold when I don’t feel well.

Around 2017 I started considering homeschool. At the time I had a kindergartner and a first grader, and the kindergartner was not adjusting well to school. This caused me a great deal of stress and worry which is particularly awful for people with adrenal insufficiency and cancer. At the time I struggled with self doubt about the decision. Was I qualified? Was I healthy enough to teach my children? Would I be hindering them socially and academically?

An unexpected plot twist…

Flash forward to 2020. COVID caused the schools to shut down. For the first two weeks the school was scrambling to make a plan. Meanwhile, I happened to have a homeschool binder ready to go that I had been using every previous summer and spring break. 

And so it begins…

I updated our curriculum and off we went.
Homeschooling was a blast! We had so much fun learning through activities, reading, watching documentaries and (educational) YouTube videos together. We went on nature walks and journaled. Rode bikes, had a picnic. Made our own neighborhood maps and learned how to navigate. We found examples of math at home and in nature. We started a garden and learned about the environment. Suddenly, education was fun. This was nothing like public school, learning wasn’t work nor was it boring. It was a family activity that we all enjoyed. This was eye opening for all of us. 

A note…

I want to pause here and say, we had a very good public school. Our decison to homeschool was not due to any failings on the part of the teachers or staff. No one could have been prepared for COVID. There was only so much any of us could do in this situation. The teachers went above and beyond the call of duty, and I’m forever grateful for the influence they had in my children’s lives.

Distance learning…

After those first two weeks, the school began their distance learning program. We were required to participate or risk a failing grade. The fun was over. Now we were trying to figure out a barrage of emails, links, logins, and apps. Keeping track of the assignments posted in various places, logging in to numerous apps, filling out online worksheets and forms made learning drudgery again. All of us were more stressed and frustrated than ever. Virtual learning was particularly problematic for my daughter. I would watch her hyperventilate and shut down. I emailed her teachers asking how they normally handle her frustration with school work, and from their response I got the gist that this was actually normal. That this is what school was for her. This realization broke my heart.

Why? Why did it have to be this way? Why does learning have to be frustrating and stressful? We were having fun learning just a few days before.

We did our best to struggle through virtual learning. I didn’t want to give up this close to the end of the year. 

Except it was sucking the life out of us. Myself in particular. For one assignment I counted that we had to use 6 logins and/or apps just to complete one assignment, in one subject, for one student. There were so many tabs open that we had to navigate back and forth. The work itself was also a challenge and turning in assignments was usually a multi-step process as well. At this point, I was the one in tears. 

A painful reminder…

This forced me to relive memories of my own public school experience with undiagnosed ADHD. I was singled out and bullied. More so by my teachers than the other students. Rather than recognizing my learning style differed from the other students and helping me break these overwhelming assignments down, I was punished. They found various ways to place me in isolation, whether it be a study carol, a small room, the hallway, or a masking tape square around my desk at the back of the room. Obviously none of these things help a student learn. It only serves to crush their spirit and extinguish their love of learning. Though the school has improved greatly at accommodating special needs students in the 20+ years since I was a student at the same school…I knew I could not let this happen to my children. I had the opportunity to give them an individualized education. 

Every family is different. Distance learning did not work for us. We needed to go back to the method that was working– homeschool. 

Making the leap…

Even though I was confident this was the best choice for us, I was still nervous. Those doubts popped back up. It’s just so counter cultural to withdraw from school. We are so accustomed to public schooling that we can hardly fathom education without it. Researching and talking to experienced homeschool moms helped ease my fears, and I took the leap…
It felt just like that, a leap. Jumping right into unknown territory. We were really doing this!  

We went back to our homeschool curriculum and focused on having fun learning from the world that was all around us, fostering independence, and teaching life skills.

Homeschool for us means hikes, gardening, experiments, building things, art projects, raising insects, making yogurt, drawing maps, writing codes, riding bikes, having picnics, doing yoga, and so much more!

Traditional school teaches them that learning is work– boring. Once my kids began to realize that learning could be fun, something changed in them. They wanted to learn all the time. Learning became our lifestyle. They willingly chose to learn as often as they could. I was not expecting this at all. 

Things were going well, we were back on track, but homeschooling with a chronic medical issues is not all sunshine and rainbows.

Homeschooling when you’re sick…

Because I have adrenal insufficiency, when my body is dealing with any illness or infection it is more serious than dealing with a few symptoms. It starts before I show any signs of an illness. I start to slow down, like a dying battery. The fatigue builds the more the infection grows. In a few days I can barely sit up, it becomes harder to do basic things like get dressed, make myself food, get water. I was in pain, that was getting worse by the day. At the same time my patience was wearing thin and my brain was getting foggier. I was teaching while curled up on the couch.

I went to an urgent care and they were too distracted by my cancer diagnosis to consider that perhaps I had an ordinary illness. I got no help and went home still in pain. 

A few days later, the pain was much worse. I would teach in the morning balled up on the couch, then once our lessons were over,  I would curl up on our hammock while the kids played outside. We would also read together in the hammock. I was struggling, but still homeschooling. 

I was sick, struggling with pain and fatigue. My adrenal insufficiency was flaring due to an underlying infection. I would teach from the couch then move my sore, tired body to the hammock so my kids could play outside. Chronic illness mamas find a way.

Finally, I couldn’t take the pain, and this time I was able to get to my primary doctor instead of urgent care. My doctor could easily see I had a kidney infection. I was given a round of antibiotic and felt increasingly better each day. 

You can do it Mama…

It is tough when your health is fragile. It’s hard to homeschool when your health makes you bed bound, but its not impossible. You can read or have them read to you. Even if your kid is too young to read, have them “read” you a picture book. Watch documentaries and videos together from the couch or bed. Sing together, play a simple game like go fish, war, connect 4, guess who. You can make this work!

Life skills are a win-win…

I emphasize life skills because I’ve always been a chronic illness mama. Even when my kids were toddlers I needed them to help out. Teach them everything you can. Have them help you with a chore at first. At 2 years old my son was helping me unload and load the dishwasher. Of course he couldn’t do it by himself back then, but we all start somewhere. It’s okay if they do a terrible job at first. They are learning. They might make a mess on the floor. Show them how to grab a towel and clean it up.

Kids love to help, and it builds self-esteem.

Don’t micromanage or criticize how they do it. Make peace with the imperfection. All of this will come in handy one day when you feel like utter crap and your kids can help with the basic household chores and even bring you food and water when you’re too sick to get out of bed. 

It seems strict, like Cinderella or something. Don’t be fooled. You’re actually building their confidence and self esteem. Praise them for their effort. Let them know how much they helped you and how much you appreciate them. Tell them a family is a team and it’s good to help each other out. Tell them you are proud of them and that they should be proud of themselves too. They will love being a capable, contributing member of the family. They will love knowing they are valued and important. 

You are doing great…

Before you beat yourself up about all the ways you think you and your illness are hindering your child, stop and think of all the ways you’re helping them. They see you struggle and never give up, they learn perseverance. They see your hard days, they learn compassion and empathy. Maybe you can’t physically do or provide all the things the other parents can, instead your child learns to be content and grateful. 

He brought me some flowers when I was sick in bed. Dandelions wither away, but the love you share with your children does not.

You are not failing! Even with your imperfections and mistakes, you are the perfect mama for your kids! You CAN do this!

Hang in there mama!


Extreme Cortisol Pumping: Pumping During Surgery

A few days ago, I had my 10th surgery. This one was different as opposed to the previous nine. For the first time I was permitted to wear my pump during the procedure.

So how did it go?

This was a fairly quick, laparoscopic abdominal surgery. Patients without comorbidities are usually back home in a few hours. Since I have adrenal insufficiency and some signs of pheochromocytoma, they did keep me a little longer as a precaution. 

Speaking of precautions, if you have adrenal insufficiency you MUST speak to your surgeon, endocrinologist and anesthesiologist about your steroid plan for surgery. Everyone needs to be on the same page. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard adrenal insufficient patients say, “oh the anesthesiologist knows what to do” DO NOT EVER MAKE THAT ASSUMPTION! They do tend to keep solu-cortef in the operating room, but that doesn’t mean they will dose it correctly. Some anesthesiologists deviate from the standard of care and come up with their own plan using less steroid. They think they’re doing you a favor, when really they are unknowingly endangering your life and hindering your recovery. DO NOT LEAVE THIS UP TO CHANCE! Make sure you’re on the same page!

As soon as surgery was mentioned, I made my concerns clear. I knew there would need to be special precautions because of the risk of adrenal crisis or hypertensive episodes due to pheo. I spoke to my surgeon and endo about this as well as two anesthesiologists. I had to have more tests than the norm in order to be cleared for surgery. I had to have any possible pheo activity blocked by taking blood pressure medication for a couple months. At this hospital they don’t assign an anesthesiologist until the night before the procedure. This makes communication a challenge, but by the time I actually met her, pretty much everyone including the nurses had already heard about my steroid plan and pheo concerns. When I discussed it with her, she had already heard my plan and was thankfully in agreement. I would receive 100mg of solu-cortef before and after the procedure and keep my pump running.

This is where I made a mistake. I planned on running a straight 10mg/hr during the procedure. However I forgot to program that profile into my pump. I programmed it in pre-op and realized my settings only allowed me to go as high as 8mg/hr. I didn’t want to edit my settings at the last minute, so I programmed 8mg/hr. That would have worked just fine except I FORGOT TO SWITCH OVER TO THAT PROFILE. Yes, it is all well and good to program a profile, but you have to actually “run” said profile for it to work. Oops! So during the procedure I was running my normal every day basal program of 30.2mg/daily. 🤦‍♀️

I woke up being wheeled into recovery. My abdomen hurt so bad. They gave me IV pain medication, but the relief began to fade after a couple minutes. They gave me another dose. Then I watched the nurse give me 100mg of solu-cortef. 15 minutes later I was moved to a regular room. That’s when I realized there was a problem. The IV pain meds had worn off already. My pain was uncontrolled. I felt nauseous, but the nurse would not give me any oral pain medication until I ate something. I had a couple spoonfuls of pudding and felt sick. I was given IV zofran with minimal effect. Still sick. Every IV medication I’d been given seemed to metabolize way too fast. This has always been the case for me, and it’s the main reason I had to switch to the cortisol pump to begin with. 
There’s a familiar and unpleasant feeling I get when my cortisol isn’t sufficient. It’s an uneasy, almost panic feeling where I’m keenly aware that something isn’t right and I’m increasingly desperate to find relief or escape. It’s more like a primal instinct, “Something is wrong, help me!” I’ve unfortunately felt this enough times to realize it was cortisol related. I realized then my pump was still set on the measley 30mg profile. I immediately switched it to the 8mg/hr profile that I had programmed in pre-OP. The problem is it takes a while for pump rates to build your blood cortisol level. For whatever reason my body did not keep those 100mg IV solu-cortef boluses in my system very long. So I had to suffer while my rates caught up. Meanwhile the nurse had given me a couple doses of pain pills, and IV phenergan. Phenergan only helped the nausea for 5 minutes or so, but thankfully it made me extremely sleepy. I was able to sleep through the misery and give my pump some time to do its thing. A few hours later the nurse came in to check on me, by then the pain meds were working and my pump was kicking butt. I was still pretty knocked out from the phenergan, but I felt well enough to get dressed and go home. My nausea was gone and my appetite had returned. Yay for proper steroid dosing!

Friends, I can’t tell you enough how much sufficient steroid dosing will make or break a situation. Especially a high stakes situation like a surgery. It’s amazing how fast I went from utter misery in the hospital, to eating a sandwich at home. Steroids ya’ll! They’re a big deal! I stepped down to my 84mg/daily “sick” basal profile and kept it there until late evening. Note: your ability to lower your stress dose will be a case by case situation and depends on what type of surgery you had, how long it was and how invasive it was. Pain control is a major factor. Stay on top of your pain medication schedule. Do not let your meds lapse or try to suffer through it. This will increase your body’s cortisol need, hinder your ability to taper your steroid dose, and potentially prolong your recovery. You need sufficient steroid dosing to get pain under control and you need your pain meds to keep your cortisol need under control. They go hand in hand, don’t skimp on one or the other. 

Quick PSA: When you’re running high rates. YOU WILL need to change your inset more often. Pumping during surgery and recovery sounds pretty convenient compared to stress dosing with pills, and it was, but what I did not mention is all the stress that kind of volume puts on an infusion site. My site was leaking by bed time, which I totally expected to happen. This is EVEN MORE true if you run 2:1 dilution ratio in your pump because you are pumping twice the volume than those on 1:1 ratio. So yes, stress dosing and sick dosing with the pump is easier and more effective than pills, but DO NOT NEGLECT YOUR SITE! Don’t wait for it to start leaking either! When you’re ill/recovering your body needs cortisol the most, this is not the time to wait around for a site failure! I’ve changed my site DAILY while recovering from this procedure.

I’ve had 2 previous surgeries as a pumper, but the medical teams for those procedures were not familiar  with, or keen on the idea of pumping during surgery, and I didn’t push them for it. After my experience pumping during this latest procedure, I am going to push for my pump every time. Infection risk is minimal, it’s less than that of the actual surgery itself. The continuous delivery of the pump is ideal for recovery and superior to IV bolusing dosing only, especially since hospitals seem to think bolusing once every 8-12 hours is going to work fine. Its miserable. Continuous delivery is where it’s at! One day they’ll get with the times I hope.

At the time of writing it’s been nearly 48 hours since my surgery. I’m back on my normal profile plus a 200% increase (double dosing). My energy is good and my pain is well controlled as long as I keep up the pain medication schedule. My biggest problem at the moment is remembering not to over do it. I’m tempted to clean house, go on a walk, etc, and I dont feel like resting like I should. Steroid dosing makes a world of difference, and the pump makes this a much smoother experience. Just don’t neglect your infusion site or your pain meds! Happy healing friends!


UPDATE: Please check out a comprehensive and research based guide to cortisol pumping!

“Sick Rates” Yes, You Need Them!

What if I told you that you don’t have to feel like utter crap every time you get sick? What if your illnesses and injuries didn’t force you to miss out on life? What if there was a way to feel better faster?

Anyone with Adrenal Insufficiency knows that an illness or injury, anything causing your body an extra amount of stress will require a “stress dose”. For anyone unfamiliar with the term, that is an increase of your steroid dosage in order for your body to cope with physical or even in some cases, emotional stress. A stress dose can be a one time extra dosage (which in pump speak we call a “bolus”), but most often it entails doubling or tripling your total daily dosage of steroid.

But what if there was a better way?

For any patient using a cortisol pump, doubling or tripling your basal rate is NOT the most effective way to combat the stress of an illness. Professor Peter Hindmarsh, the leading expert in cortisol pump therapy, states in his book that doubling basal rate DOES NOT double your cortisol level (Congenital Adrenal Hyperplasia: A Comprehensive Guide p.357). Instead he suggests running a different basal program. Ladies and gentleman, you need to have “sick rates”!

What exactly are “sick rates”?

Sick rates are modified delivery rates part of a basal program better designed to accommodate your body’s cortisol needs when you’re ill, (or injured, or grieving, etc.).

Basically, when a person is sick, the pattern in which the body produces cortisol changes. Rather than the typical high peak in the morning declining throughout the day to a very low cortisol level at midnight, cortisol is needed in a more consistent elevation. Cortisol levels are higher and more “flat” in appearance if you were to draw them on a graph.

This change in distribution is key. You don’t even necessarily need to double or triple the amount of milligrams, having this more consistent delivery pattern when your body needs it makes a world of difference.

So what do sick rates look like? How do I program them?

The main difference you’ll notice in my example is that evening and night rates are much higher than you’d find with typical circadian rhythm. This is on purpose, and its the most crucial part of the program. Don’t cut these evening rates down and expect it to be effective. That’s the whole point of the “sick” profile.

Full disclosure: I did not design this delivery profile. For the sake of privacy, I will not name the person who did, however I will say that this person is a medical provider with many years of first hand experience with adrenal insufficiency, and management of cortisol pump patients.

You might have some questions…

Only 4 time blocks?- Yes. You don’t need a complicated delivery profile for illness. You want it to be elevated, consistent, and “flat”.

Isn’t 84mgs kind of high?- Maybe. It would depend on your normal daily dosage and exactly how sick you are. As a sick day profile, 84mgs is a good amount for someone who takes 30-40mgs on a typical day. Keep in mind this is for when you’re experiencing significant illness or injury. I’ve also used this profile to cope with the emotional stress of the sudden loss of a loved one. This is not a profile for sniffles. The beauty of this basal profile is that you can switch to it and set a temporary basal increase or decrease to suit your level of “sick”. Have a cold? You can set a temp decrease. Recovering from a major illness or surgery? You can set a temp increase.

This can be template for you to explore alternative basal profiles. For example, I have a profile that is a steady 6mg/hr for 24hrs. This is what I used to wean down from IV steroids post surgery. From there I made a profile with 2 time blocks, 6mg/hr for 12hrs and 4mg/hr for 12hrs as a step down toward “sick rates”. My point is, basal profiles should be flexible to suit your body’s needs in a given situation. Just as a non adrenal insufficient person’s cortisol production is not set in stone, neither should our basal rates.

Don’t wait until you’re sick to program a sick basal profile! You won’t be clear minded enough to design a totally new profile. Just plug this into your pump now and save it. When you do need it, you can just switch over…no hassle, no worries!

What if I don’t use a cortisol pump?

If you’re not yet using a cortisol pump, you can still use this principle in your stress dosing strategy. This can be accomplished in one of 2 ways. You can either dose your hydrocortisone MUCH more frequently (which can be difficult if you’re feeling poorly), or you can use a longer acting steroid such a Prednisone or dexamethisone to give that more consistent elevation.

What I hope you take away from this more than any cookie cutter basal profile, is that you begin to look at your body’s cortisol need as an ever changing and fluctuating thing rather than how we typically view set doses of medication. Look at your basal programs and dosing schedules logically and creatively.

A cortisol pump is nothing more than a tool. The more skilled you are at using this tool, the better you will manage your Adrenal Insufficiency.

Happy pumping friends!

❤️ Michelle

For more information about sick dosing please check out a comprehensive and research based guide to cortisol pumping!

5 Reasons NOT to Get a Cortisol Pump

The Cortisol pump has the potential to dramatically improve the lives of patients with adrenal insufficiency. All current research studies indicate improvements in patient quality of life. With results like that, the pump seems like magic, right?
My own experience with the cortisol pump has been dramatic and highly successful. Positive patient testimonials such as mine, make others suffering with poor quality of life think the pump is the solution to all of their woes.
While I have raved about the merits of the pump, I’ve also been honest about how difficult it has been, and that pumping alone hasn’t fixed everything, nor did any of these changes come quickly.
I am not writing this to discourage anyone from using the cortisol pump. Personally, I love it, and I want this treatment to be an option for every adrenal insufficient patient. However, I don’t want to mislead anyone. I want patients to have a realistic idea of what pumping entails so they can make an educated decision about their treatment.

5 Reasons NOT to Get a Cortisol Pump!
1. You feel great on steroid pills.
This was never the case for me, and I don’t come across a whole lot of people that do, but there really are some patients out there that get by just fine on oral steroids. For these patients, it would not be worth the time and effort to switch to a pump and it would not be worth the extra work and expense to maintain it.
2. You are not a self advocate.
This is still an uncommon and relatively new treatment, (cortisol pumps have been in use about 13 years.) It’s likely you’ll have to search for a doctor that supports this treatment, and even when you find one, there is a good chance they will have very little to no experience with cortisol pumping. If you cannot gather research yourself, present your case to the doctor, be prepared to be rejected, and be willing to try again…it’s not going to work out. Even when you start the pump, you will have better success if you can work along with the doctor to keep track of your own symptoms and adjust your own delivery rates accordingly. You will never be able to just sit back and let someone else do this for you. If you’re not a persistent self-advocate, this is not the treatment for you.
3. Pills are too much hassle.
Yes, pills are a huge hassle. It’s terribly inconvenient to take pills 3-8 times daily. Yes, it’s annoying having alarms going off all the time for meds, and yes it totally sucks having to wake up in the middle of the night for doses.
You would think the pump is more convenient with it’s preset schedule and continuous delivery, and most of the time it is. However, the pump is not something you just set and forget. You will have to use syringes to mix Solu-cortef and refill your cartriges. You will have to change out your inset at least every 3 days following strict sanitation procedures. True, that’s better than taking pills every few hours every single day of your life, but there will be times your pump maintenance doesn’t go as planned. You might get a low units alarm at night when you just want to sleep. You might find yourself with a failed infusion set when you’re out in public. While these aren’t huge problems, it will take a bit more effort to fix than just swallowing another pill. My point is, if pump therapy seems appealing to you because of the convenience- you will be disappointed. Pumping ain’t easy! It’s totally doable, just know what you’re getting into before taking the plunge!
4. You’re afraid of needles.
Pump therapy involves inserting a Cannula into your skin with a small needle. It’s nearly painless when done correctly, but if this sounds like more than you can handle, then the pump isn’t for you. You should also know that the pump is ABSOLUTELY NOT AN ALTERNATIVE TO YOUR EMERGENCY INJECTION! You cannot rely on your pump to infuse 100mgs or more at a time. This will almost assuredly cause your infusion site to fail, which could make an emergency situation even worse. Even if you could infuse all 100mgs without it leaking, subcutaneous absorbtion will be slower than intramuscular. Also, there’s a chance you won’t even have 100mgs in your cartridge to deliver. So don’t think getting a pump will mean you never need an emergency injection.
5. You don’t want to talk to your insurance company.
Even if you’re willing to pay out of pocket for a pump or buy one second hand, you are going to have to contact your insurance company at some point. While the cost of a infusion pump brand new is thousands of dollars, the monthly Solu-Cortef can be the most costly item depending on your insurance coverage. You’ll want to know your DME benefits, be familiar with your prescription plan’s formulary list, and most importantly don’t be afraid to call and ask questions! Ask ask ask! Find out exactly what they can and can’t do, find out how to have an exception made, or how to appeal a decision. Don’t expect your insurance company to get everything right and work it all out for you, but at the same time, don’t just assume they won’t help at all. You don’t know until you try!
I encourage anyone with adrenal insufficiency, suffering with poor quality of life, to look into subcutaneous hydrocortisone infusion therapy. It has really changed my life for the better, but it has been an indescribable amount of work. Even when you start on the cortisol pump, the battle isn’t over. You will have to learn strategies to manage it…by yourself. You will have to ensure you always have a steady supply of Solu-Cortef and pump supplies, even when your insurance and financial situations change. You’ll have to be prepared to deal with unexpected maintenance and mishaps, handle them the best you can, and just keep on going. It helps to be strong willed, assertive, and stubborn. You will have to be resourceful and adaptive. There are times even the strongest, most resilient pumpers I know will get frustrated and want to quit, but ultimately, all of the work is worth it. We take a deep breath, pick ourselves up and keep pumping.

A Health Update: Where I’m at, and where I’m headed.


One of the reasons I started this blog was to give health updates. I’ve yet to use it for this purpose, but today I am going to be more personal and talk openly and honestly about (part) of my health.

I was hospitalized over Christmas for a respiratory virus that was complicated by my adrenal insufficiency. This turned into pneumonia, which was thankfully cleared up with antibiotics. I seemed to improve after leaving the hospital, but I spoke too soon. Maybe I was too active? I wound up back in the ER new years eve. I am grateful I did not need to be admitted the second time. Truthfully I don’t think I could have handled two consecutive holidays in the hospital.

I’m dealing with some emotional baggage from all of this. I’m sick of being sick. I want to leave my house. I’d really like to enjoy the warm Florida winter walk the beach, and gather sea shells. Really at this point anywhere would be great, or even just having the ability to do normal household chores would be a welcome change. My husband is a saint and is taking care of me and the kids right now. Frankly though, I don’t want to be taken care of, I want to be healthy. I have to keep reminding myself that this is only temporary, discouraging, but temporary. Perhaps I should revisit my previous blog post and work on some self love.

On the the plus side, I woke up with an appetite today! I had the energy to make my kids a real, non-cereal, breakfast. I made myself a healthy high protein/high calorie meal too. I’ve lost 10lbs since my hospitalization at Christmas just a week ago. If we’ve ever met, you might have noticed I don’t have 10lbs to lose, especially that quickly. My steroid dose has more than tripled, which would normally cause weight gain so I’m stumped on this one. The appetite is an encouraging sign of improvement though.

I was prescribed a nebulizer to help my lungs. There was some difficulty getting the nebulizer delivered because of the holiday, but I was able to borrow one, and it seems to be helping. It works better than just a few little puffs on an inhaler.

I’ve been using my blog and my support groups as a distraction, and what a great distraction they are. Helping and encouraging others effectively gets my mind off my own problems. Maybe this is my purpose now?

I hope that very soon this will all be a distant memory. Another lesson to add to a ever growing list.

I do have something to look forward to this year. Next month, I will be visiting a new endocrinologist. I had a bad experience with the last one, and I do have some residual anxiety from that. However, I remain optimistic that a better endocrine doctor will translate into a better quality of life for me. I’ve got some scary questions hopefully he will be able to answer. I won’t go into that situation here yet, but good vibes are appreciated. I will also be making my case for subcutaneous hydrocortisone pump therapy at this appointment. For those who have never heard of this, it is a insulin pump that infuses the corticosteroid hydrocortisone, which is bio identical to natural cortisol. I have not been able to tolerate this medication orally, and this treatment would instead infuse the medication directly into my body. It could be a turning point for me if the doctor is cooperative. If not, I am not a quitter. This therapy is very new and even experienced doctors seem skittish about it, though studies are very promising. I cannot simply go find a doctor using this treatment as the patients are told not give out names. It will be a fight whether with the doctor, or with insurance, or learning the therapy itself, but this is my life and I am not backing down.


Thanks to everyone for their love and support. You really keep me going and I am very grateful!